your shadow is alive and well

if it's happy i don't know, if it's sad i can't tell
when you write those words, that make up those sentences, i am everything
they are bigger than me, they make me hold my breath
but you have to stay a far away thought, i fight myself to keep you there
if i don't think about you often then i don't have to push away my wanting you and i don't have to feel the not having of you
far past city lights, far away from rivers and forest trees, we linger off trying not to move
there are secrets and hope in the white spaces where nothing is written
we sit behind this screen and sigh because the holey fabric is keeping us separated
but under eyelids i will keep a space for you,
where nothing has to be hidden and we can be "we"
even if just in dreams, where we are part asleep and part awake
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